During the last couple of months, I began harboring this itch. And I know this itch. I‘ve scratched it before.
It began at the exact place I’m sitting now; at the table nearest the trashcan in my favorite Barnes & Noble in Maryland. And, the more romanticized aspect of this whole affair is that I can almost positively state that it was exactly three years ago that I made the decision I’m currently set on reversing.
I remember the “aha!” moment. I didn’t drive straight home and tell the ‘rents “look, come summer, I’m moving back to LA…hasta la vista”. I kept it to myself, but spoke of it with certainty. I told random strangers, but never my closest friends.
And here I am. Again. Sitting next to my very own version of the Bodhi Tree (which stinks of sugary Starbucks concoctions). And it almost feel reverential.
I’m digging for a deeper meaning, when the pure reality of the situation is that I don’t like the “real life” I have in LA. It’s not the life I imagined three years ago. So, I’m re-imaging a life in DC; I’d land the perfect gig, meet awesome people, go to awesome places, and do awesome things. And magically, I won’t be the person I am, but instead be the person I want to be.
Moving is my short term, fuck-it-all solution.
I do love LA. When I’m not there. When I’m not working. When it’s not sunny.
And I hate DC. When I’m here. And when I’m working. And when it’s snowing.
If I quit a well-paying, upwardly mobile gig that supplies me with enough dough to grocery shop at Whole Foods, afford my own pad, and buy useless techie toys, would it be stupid? If I gave up and vagabonded cross country for a couple months, would it be crazy?
Better yet, is it rational to wake up in the morning, dread my day? Week? Year? And repeat it over a lifetime?
And is it absofuckinglutely insane, knowing that in three years time, I will likely reverse the reversal of my decision?
38 comments:
You know how I feel! Periodic, major changes can be a very good thing.
Sounds like you've already decided.
Интересно написано....но многое остается непонятнымb
Интересно написано....но многое остается непонятнымb
strangly enough i feel the exact same way
Hello! Just bloghopping. Great blog!
Happy blogging! :)
I'm appreciate your writing skill.Please keep on working hard.^^
Hello! :)
Try being interesting on the inside. That way, you won't have to change everything on the outside over and over again just to keep you entertained.
So if you know that you will eventually plan to reverse this, then why not save yourself the time and money. I think you really need to move to a new place. Start a new adventure away from both LA and DC.
been there girl! just follow and be where ever your heart is, that was the deciding point for me. (cliche but true)
Wherever you go, there you are. When I consider moving, the tiny voice of reason will peek in and remind me of what I wish to, well, escape/rediscover the undiscoverable.
That which is me. Everywhere. Snowing, sunny. It's all in your disposition. deary
There will always be an itch that needs to be scratched. You just have to decide if you can live with the itch or if it is one that you can not help but scratch.
been there too. all I can say is what my mom told me once, and only years later (years!) did it sink in:
Wherever you go, there you are.
If you truly hate LA, by all means, move on...but know that it'll still be you when you get ot the new place.
Aaaannnd...there's no such thing as awesome gig, awesome people, awesome things...there's just everyday life that we call awesome.
trying to figure out how i can follow you. you seem like an exquisite human being
You have to express more your opinion to attract more readers, because just a video or plain text without any personal approach is not that valuable. But it is just form my point of view
I hope you left that job. It's OK if you reverse the decisions that felt so right years ago. Some people need to keep moving to feel alive. It's not always easy to be that way, but it's rich in experience (and occasion family and friend consternation).
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I don't know what to tell you. Follow your heart, I guess. Do what you love and let it take you where it takes you. Fuck the rest.
By the way, your blog is the first blog that has actually grabbed my interest without the use of pictures. Nice work.
Keep it coming!
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All praise be to Allah Who is the one and only God , He on Whom we depend ,He begets not , nor is He begotten , and none is like Him .
Islam , the last Revelation from Allah is based on five pillars that form the basic foundation of Islam :-
1- Shahadah, a statement professing monotheism by testifying that there is no God worthy of worshiping but Allah and Mohammad ( peace be upon him ) is the messenger of Allah .
2- Salat (Prayers), a Muslim prays five times a day at certain set time for each prayer . While praying aMuslim stand before his creator thanking Him and asking Him for forgiveness and guidance .
3- Zakat , it is paying charity on accumulate wealth and is paid by the rich to the poor.
4-Sawm (Fasting), It is withholding from eating , drinking, and sexual activities from sun up to sun down and is done for the whole month of Ramadan . Fasting is obligatory on every Muslim who is of age and physically able to fast
5- Hajj (Pilgrimage) , It is visiting the holy city of Mecca and performing the rituals of Hajj, Hajj is obligatory on every able (physically and financially) and should be done at least once in a life time .
The similarities between Islam and Christianity are vast but one major difference is the way we believe in Jesus . Muslims believe in Jesus as a messenger from Allah ( not as the son of God ) and the Holy Quran states that He was created from dirt as Adam was ,Allah created Adam without a male or female , Eve from a male without female , and created Jesus from a female without a male , The rest of humanity were created , from a male and female and were made into different races and tribes to meet and live together in peace.
This is brief summary of the Islamic faith and is meant to educate and promote understanding , May Allah accept and lead us to the righteous path .
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Hello, Just bloghopping. Great blog!
Be Well :)
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this post just speaks to me. though i haven't really gone through a situation like this, i feel that i understand the feelings behind it. i don't like my life here in NYC either but i can't afford to leave just yet. and just when I get back on my feet, something happens and it prolongs the life that I WANT TO LEAD.
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Hey! Just found your blog. Do what feels fun. Live your life the way you know you'll FEEL you're living it.
Did that whole traveling thing all through my twenties. It was fun and now am mostly grown out of it, though I still daydream about a big move. My family are the anchors that help me keep my bearing.
I say, enjoy your life.
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We are all drifters. 3 years is a long time. Live it, enjoy it, and learn from it. New pastures await you, new friends, new hopes, and yes, new regrets.
Just remember, in life, everything is inevitable. Otherwise why would it happen?
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